Friday, October 14, 2011
I wonder if I will ever feel normal again. Did I count the cost when I decided to follow Christ? I'm thinking that I really didn't at the time. I can tell you that now, I count that cost quite often.
When God whispers another direction in my ear, I listen and I wonder what it will cost me. It's not that I resent the cost so much (that is at least true before I pay said cost). It is that I know there will be a cost. Following Christ costs. It just does.
And the Scripture makes no bones about it. In Luke 14:28, Jesus asks a rather pointed question of his listeners, "Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Won’t you first sit down and estimate the cost to see if you have enough money to complete it?" He is showing that if you don't count the cost you'll be sorry later.
The cost of following Christ comes in many unexpected ways. For example, today, a fun chic on one of my favorite websites recommended a particular blog as a wonderful source of humor. I trotted over to check it out and couldn't laugh. I just couldn't.
All the other blog readers reported rapturous hilarity. And I read a bit and then closed it and went away wondering.
Why? Because the language was foul and my Lord has removed my ability to even find that funny. Sometimes, if I'm honest, I mourn that fact. Ultimately, it is a good thing, but sometimes I wish I could enjoy the world around me without the truth filter.
I don't really want that, but I am hoping you can relate to what I am saying. Because here is the thing, I'm not normal. I don't laugh at the same jokes, I don't get my entertainment in the same way, I don't go to the same places or do the same things as most other people do. And that is a cost.
It's not normal to live the way our family lives. Believe me, everyone I meet feels quite free to say so in one way or another.
And that costs.
I have Christ, Truth, Life, Eternity, Joy, Wisdom, Freedom from Sin, and Power. All of these I have gained as a result of the payment of one perfect man on a tree and my willingness to accept it.